I have had a rough couple of days, with school and work and friends. I felt like I was failing at life, but then I remembered this poem. I wrote it when I was having a really hard time and just like now I want to tell the world that I am in charge.
I
Will Conquer
Who’s
to say I’ll ever get over this
Who’s
to say I’m going to be whole one day
Who’s
to say I will amount to anything
Who’s
to say I won’t be swallowed up by my own fears
Who’s
to say I won’t just fall to pieces
Who’s
to say I will heal from these scars
Who’s
to say life will get better
Who’s
to say I will stop crying
Who’s
to say my hurt isn’t real
I
say I will never get over this
That
crying is the only remedy
I
have been trying, and trying to make it better
Why
not just give up
Why
do people think the bravery in me will overcome this fear
It
won’t,
But
if it does I will decide not anyone else
Who’s
to say I won’t be my own savior
Who’s
to say I won’t put myself back together
Who’s
to say I won’t learn to love myself
Who’s
to say this wasn’t meant to happen
Who’s
to say I won’t learn from these scars
Who’s
to say I won’t be loved unconditionally
Who’s
to say I won’t break through and conquer all
Who’s
to say one day I won’t be thankful for all this hurt
No
one
I
am in control of my life
Whether
I let it fall to pieces
Or
let it change the world for the better
I
will conquer my fears
And
be the savior of my life
I
will, this is the first step
And
who’s to say anything
February
19, 2009
