Missed call from Papa Bear
Call me, the text said
Clocked out
Walking home
Hey what's up Dad?
Are you done with everything today?
*Deja vu*
I've had this conversation before
276 days ago
The day my world stopped
I know what's coming and yet
I'm still shocked when it's revealed
...hospital...awhile...passed away...morning
What!?
This can't be happening again
*Deja vu*
Walking home alone
Darkness surrounds me
suffocating the light of the world
my world stopped
can't breathe
...the circle of life
better place...
it's over
not even a year
and they're both gone
the first drop escapes
floodgates open
feelings, emotions
I want to bury, want it to stop
hurting
*Deja vu*
it hasn't stopped, won't stop
...gets easier
not yet
that call brought it all back
that cold snowy December night
one day shy of two decades
same lost little girl
what's a granddaughter without grandparents?
September 18, 2014
I'm not sure if this is done, it's all too raw. But hopefully it does them justice. I miss them both, I still can't believe my dad lost them just 276 days apart. Can't believe I lost them. However the scales are not unbalanced. As we loose, God gains. And today He gained a great man. I love you Grandpa.
Oh, Aub, I'm so sorry to hear about this. I love you so much! You're in my thoughts and prayers. What a sad, beautiful, emotional poem. Love you <3 <3
ReplyDeleteAubrianna--this is lovely. Losing grandparents is always so difficult, no matter who gains them. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank you guys for the love and support. And thank you for reading my poems, that alone makes me feel so loved.
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